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ACL Club 2023: 1 of 250 000

ACL pre-hab: what it feels like and looks like

ACL recovery consists of 4 stages:

pre-oppre-hab
preparing for surgery
November – March, 3.5 months
early↓ swelling
↑ quad activation/control
normalize walking
achieve “quiet knee”
March – ?,
midintroduce running
latereturn to play progression

On November 18, 2023, I played an indoor Ultimate tournament on too little sleep, not enough warm-up, and a bit amped up after telling my team “Let’s play better”. I was sprinting down the field and the disc came out behind me. I think to myself, “I can get that”, plant my right foot to turn 180° and my knee buckles. No pop. I go down and I know it’s not good.

(Please never ever change direction like that.)

I joined 250,000 people in North America who tore their ACL that year, joining two teammates from Union and 6ixers.1 Arguably one of the most complex, longest, and most researched musculoskeletal injuries, and something many athletes have said is the hardest thing they’ve ever done.

Although I know people who tore their ACLs, I never knew what it felt like, physically and emotionally.

Physically, the acute event was more shock than true pain. I gasped when my knee buckled, and the first thoughts I had were, “Oh no, I won’t be able to play at Pan American championships and Team Canada Masters tryouts.” Once I calmed down, I remember thinking, “Oh, I’m not in pain. I’m just being dramatic”, and I tried to crawl off the field by myself.

I cancelled Sunday Volleyball, Sunday, Wednesday, and Thursday Ultimate, and surfing lessons. I hoped beyond hope that it was an LCL injury like the tournament athletic therapist thought, that it wasn’t a torn ACL and that my knee would bounce back like a miracle hamstring spasm that I thought was a hamstring tear. I hoped beyond hope I could get back on the field for the biggest peak events I had been looking forward to for so long.

My knee feels like a newborn baby, except my sleep is not bad and there are no diapers to change. I fuss to get the pillows just right for my baby. I’m consuming content for my baby daily – injury psychology, ACL research papers, various rehab methods to add to my daily protocol, and other people’s experiences. 

Someone asked me if I miss playing, and the biggest thing I miss right now is feeling strong. I miss being able to walk comfortably, run, sprint, jump and do things. I miss playing, but I miss being able so much more.

I imagined myself as a coach, talking to an athlete who had just been injured:

Your knee is hurt.

You might be having a lot of feelings – anxious, upset, frustrated, sad, disappointed.


Feelings are beautiful.
Your feelings are valid, you’re injured and it really sucks.


What you need to focus on next is taking care of your body, so you can get back to doing what you love ASAP.


Any thoughts that are not useful to your priorities should be let go – they are slowing you down & distracting you from your true end goal. Stay hyper-focused on your end goal to make the best of it.

This arduous musculoskeletal injury is physically, mentally, and emotionally challenging.

It is over a year of recovery and tons of work to return to the level of activity you had before.

In the last three months, I learned to show myself 𝗚𝗥𝗔𝗖𝗘. Honouring the trauma my body sustained, and recognizing I can’t change what happened. I can only control what I do next.

I 𝗦𝗛𝗢𝗪 𝗨𝗣 daily. On days I don’t want to, when I’m tired, reminding myself I can do anything I can put my mind to, and learning 𝗜 𝗮𝗺 𝗰𝗮𝗽𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝗻 𝗜 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗶𝗺𝗮𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗲.

So I 𝗣𝗨𝗧 𝗜𝗡 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗪𝗢𝗥𝗞, prioritizing rehab above all else, and even if I don’t see the results right away, I 𝗧𝗥𝗨𝗦𝗧 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗣𝗥𝗢𝗖𝗘𝗦𝗦.

I have a background in strength training, nutrition, and mental performance, yet I seriously struggle to navigate this injury: what to do and what not to do. I can’t imagine what others’ journeys felt like. I’m reminded 𝗜𝗧’𝗦 𝗢𝗞𝗔𝗬 𝗧𝗢 𝗔𝗦𝗞 𝗙𝗢𝗥 𝗛𝗘𝗟𝗣.

Finally, I’m building towards 𝗚𝗔𝗠𝗘 𝗗𝗔𝗬.

The kind of discipline and commitment I know is needed for elite sports.

I’m getting game-ready for surgery, and every step after that. All the way to return to play, taking the field again, and doing all the things I love. Not only Ultimate, but an active lifestyle of running, jumping, surfing, hiking, and so much more.


These are some things that have helped me along the way

https://acltear.info
A comprehensive resource for ACL pre-hab, post-op rehab, and no-op rehab and a highly cited, highly regarded research team.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ACL/


  1. https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/24776712  ↩︎

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